A Standalone Contemporary Romance
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I’ve made mistakes. Some of those mistakes have ruined lives, including my own.
Because of this, my past is something I have kept to myself, so when I found a woman who also wanted her past to remain hidden, it felt like the universe was pushing us together.
It turns out the universe had nothing to do with that.
If a person’s past doesn’t exist, the present may not unravel the way it should.
I found out the hard way, when I learned that my wife is not who I thought she was…living with a past I should know about. Her continuous self-destructive behaviors let me know she clearly has a plan—possibly one I never should have been a part of. I keep trying to save her, but she’s making it hard.
Now, both of our pasts have simultaneously rolled into the spotlight—colliding head-on, and causing the present to come crashing down on top of us.
I learned that since our pasts are part of who we are, they will always be the foundation of our present and our future.
The question I have is, will either of us walk away in one piece?
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A Note From the author:
A Missing Heart is a standalone contemporary romance that focuses on AJ’s life and the mistakes he’s made along the way. His mistakes started at a young age and sent his world spiraling in a less than the desired direction. With the lack of confidence he gained over the years, AJ finds himself in poor relationships and with incompatible women. Even after losing the loves of his life, which was followed by a failed marriage, he refused to give up until he found the one woman he was meant to be with (or thought he was meant to be with), Tori. With both of AJ and Tori bringing along more than a little baggage, they made a pact not to discuss their past, and instead, only focus on their future. Anyone could tell them their plan wasn’t a good one, but it was their decision, and it worked until an accidental pregnancy opened pandora’s box, showing a side of AJ and Tori that would highlight their mismatched assumptions of the way their relationship would continue.
Tori has been my toughest character to write out of all the characters I have written in the past five years. She has a past many may not understand or relate to, therefore she is complex and mysterious—interesting, even. As her life with a new baby unfolds, so does the trueness of what she feels inside. Tori is unstable, incapable of love, and in more pain that AJ can comprehend.
Having experience with postpartum depression as well as anxiety, I poured my emotions into Tori, exacerbating it to showcase the experiences Tori went through in her past. As I’ve personally learned, the human mind is incredibly weak, but when it’s sent through a meat grinder, it can get to the point of complete malfunction. This is what Tori experienced. I wondered what it would feel like not to have control in the situations she and AJ were in, and it made me personally feel sick inside.
I’m not proud to admit I have control issues, but living with that, I understand the pain that comes along with having no say through even the simplest life complications. Speaking for myself, It makes me feel like I’m breaking inside, like I need to scream and cry, and sometimes hide in a corner of a room alone while I convince myself that I don’t need to have control. For those who have mental weaknesses, the brain can take advantage, creating excessive thoughts and issues that may not even be relevant to the crisis at hand.
Tori was forced to make a scary decision, one that would affect her life, as well as everyone one else in her world. It was her only way out, and at first, it was a dangerous way out.
The problem is, what is best for one person, may ruin another’s happiness and life, but sometimes, there is no winning for either side.
AJ only wanted a content life after the past issues he had endured, and he fought hard for this dream of happiness. However, AJ was quick to learn that some dreams are just never meant to come true. Though, being the fighter he is, he went as far as he could until a brick wall formed in front of him.
There are a lot of emotions woven through the words of this story, and I felt every single one of them while I was writing. I write from the heart, and while I don’t always create stories that accurately mimic personal experiences, I try to sync my thoughts with the minds of my characters so I can speak of their true feelings. My heart ached while I wrote this story, and when I finished the last page, I cried. The writing process for me is a build up of feelings until I emotionally can’t take anymore. Once that happens, I fix all of the wrongs and try to mend my characters’ hearts until they can claim a happy ending in their lives, no matter how that may be.
I hope you all enjoy this story, and if your heart breaks a little during the process, I think you’ll feel the different kinds of happiness I tried to mend my characters with at the end. <3
Thank you for constantly supporting my dream!